The Tiny Mind

R.I.P Uncle Lai

2009-12-24T16:49:00.003+08:00

About 15 minutes ago, I was informed that my precious cousin sister's dad (who is my uncle) just passed away. This afternoon around 2.30 pm I went to visit him with my elder bro and cousin brother. So, this blog is specially dedicated to him.

I am sure all of us are happy yet feeling sad that he has "moved on". We are feeling happy cause he does not need to suffer anymore. My uncle had a stage four lung cancer so he is doing chemo in SJMC. All of us can see that he suffers a lot. Even though I am not close with this uncle but I do feel sad cause my beloved cousin sister just lost his father. Everything will be different from this moment.

I do really hope that she and her family will be alright. May God bless them.

May you rest in peace Uncle Lai.

Condolences,

Lisa & the Family.

This is how I felt.

2009-11-21T19:40:00.001+08:00

Your way.

2009-10-27T20:12:00.003+08:00

I just realized that recently, we didn't talk to each other much. Last time, we used to keep in touch with one another every millisecond!!! But now, everything seems so dull and boring to me.

Both of us don't have much to talk about. It always ended up either me stop giving you a reply or vise versa. I am not sure if this is a good thing.

Somehow, there's something bothering about me and making me to doubt about you and US (sometimes not all the time)!!!

I am so afraid that the distance between us gets further and further.

Blank!

2009-10-24T19:14:00.003+08:00

I don't know how I feel anymore. Everything is just way too different from last time. I think there's something in me is changing.

Why is it so complicated? I just want something fun and simple.

Whatever!!

2009-10-11T23:41:00.002+08:00

You don't need to change yourself cause of what happened last time. After all, you still the same. To be honest, I am quite disappointed to see that. Guess nothing much I can do. I will just let everything be that way. :) I didn't expect you to be different than last time cause I know you won't and never will.

OMG!

2009-09-01T16:52:00.002+08:00

Hey people,for two months already that I didn't update my blog. I got lotsa stories wanna tell y'all but I am too lazy to type it out. Since I am in a mood to type right now, I will just touch up on what I've been doing for the past 2 months.

I have been struggling in Form 6 life. But,it is quite fun when I can get to meet up my friends,crack jokes,have a little bit of arguement with them and etc. etc. Tomorrow I will be sitting for my very first monthly test. Hehe. I am feeling very nervous and worried as well. Form 6 syllabus is damn WIDE!!! What the hell?!?!?!?! This is seriously insane man. I don't know what am I doing.

Ok,thats all for today. Need to get back to my revision. =(

!@#$%^&*

2009-06-14T21:15:00.002+08:00

Feeling stress from studies, missing someone, waiting for someones text & insomnia make you looks like an idiot and feel horrible!!

That's what I am feeling right now! ='(

Ehh??

2009-06-13T17:23:00.007+08:00

After falling asleep on my bed,I went out to the kitchen to grab some cold water to drink. Once I open the fridge,something caught both of my eyes!! What is that huh? You guys must be wondering. Hehe.

I saw an egg,sitting there alone all by itself. Why did it caught my eyes? Is because of it superb unique shape. It is totally different from other eggs. *Roses among the thorns* I was so amazed by it shape and keep on looking at it. I told my mom about it. Yeah,I was so excited about it. Hahaha. I am nuts! =D

Let us cut out all the crap and take a look at the egg!

1st of all of course must see how does a normal egg looks like..

2nd..see the 'sakai'..hahaha

Let's see the comparison!!

Hahahaha. I know y'all must be thinking I am weird right for blogging about EGGS! I was just too freaking bored at home so I am just trying to do something. Hehehehe.

I need to get dressed for my friend's b'day parttteehhh (Swee Peng). I also would like to wish her Happy B'day!!!!

Comes Around.

2009-06-12T22:40:00.003+08:00

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down

Just get back up when it knocks you down, knocks you down

It's Love

2009-06-07T22:24:00.002+08:00

This is a song written by an unknown Jap. guy. I feel that this song lyrics is very sweet in some way. =)

You can't touch your hear but I feel it so clearly
What kind of melody can I honestly sincerely put this emotion into
Tell me you'll never mean to leave me
Believe me I won't let you cry upon my words
You have place in my heart
I need you all night
Whole life I was waiting for this

It's love
You gave me baby
It's like deep blue
Come this way
I'll lead you
Don't doubt my love
Do you see the star above us?
It'll never be gone

You don't need to feel lonely
It's only necessary to know me loving you
I want you to want me
How could I tell you?
How could I show you?
What else can I do?
Oh baby,
I'm in love with you.

Ahh,isn't it this masterpiece is beautifully written? Hehe. Hope y'all enjoy it. XD

Hold back!

2009-06-05T21:13:00.002+08:00

Ermm, I don't know why I suddenly feel like crying now.
Ahh, feeling so burdened!
SO restless!
So frustrated!
Really really don't know what to do.

Yo,I am back in action!!

2009-05-29T14:16:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone! I am back to blogging. I have been inactive for how long?? Hehe. So sorry for keeping you guys waiting (err,I hope so got people waiting for me to update this blog-la ).

Today I went to school to celebrate Teacher's Day! Owh ya,did I tell you guys that I am back in school? Yeah,I am doing form 6 now in La Salle,P.J school. The way La Salle celebrate Teacher's Day was different than my previous school. I think my former school is much better than La Salle. No offence to all La Sallians!! Hahaha. >.<

I performed today. Aiya,relax-la people. I perform with a bunch of friends. We formed a singing group consists of 12 people ( Sai Sudha, Parvin, Hema, Sharmilaa, Nicole, Rachel, Nagammai, Natasha, Sze Sze, Mui Koon, Michelle and last but not least is L-I-S-A). Well,we didn't really did a good job cause we just practised for one 2 days. 2 DAYSSSSSS!!! Can you imagine that? We were noticed to perform on Teacher's Day like on Monday? So yeah,you all can imagine-la how frustrated we were. Anyway,we enjoyed ourselves on the stage cause all the audience a.k.a the La Sallians cheered for us.

Oppss,almost forgot to tell you people that we actually sang "How Do I Live by Trisha Yearwood". As I am standing the front row (being the shortest in my group =.='') I have to memorize the whole freaking song in 2 days!! So,every single night and day I will be singing that song before I go to bed. Hehehehehe.

After all the singing,I went to PAANDI (a mamak next to my school) for lunch. There were 8 of us (Rodney,Aaron,Asha,Natasha,Rachel,Nicole,Sharmilaa and shortie Lisa). While we were "mamak-ing",we are planning to go for a movie tomorrow after being stressed for goddamn 2 weeks. After discuss discuss,we decided to go and watch Night at the Museum 2!! Then,we walked back to school and find more people to join us for tomorrow. Without us noticing it,we accidentally asked too many friends to go. Hahaha. They are Wai Hong(a.k.a Hong Hong),Sai Sudha,Hema,Nicole,Sharmilaa,Rachel,Natasha and maybe Nabila).

Ermm,I hope that tomorrow will be fun and crazy!! =D

Stop and Stare

2009-05-01T20:12:00.002+08:00

I was staring outside my window for about 3 minutes and wondering why can't I spend my holiday time happily for the past 3 months. Well, there are a few moments that I actually had fun when I am away for vacation.

Right now there is a HUGE thunderstorm striking in my mind. I am feeling so restless and I couldn't even breathe properly. I don't what is wrong with me. Out of nowhere I just become emo and feel like crying. I am feeling so suffocated in my own house. I really wanna step out of this room right now and go out have fun with my friends.

I am pretty sure some you of out there know the REASON why I am behaving this way. There is an anger in me that I can't express and that makes me feeling very very tired!

I have been thinking a lot lately. Haiya,so lazy to say everything. Will have to leave now. Ciao.

TAKE THIS!!!

2009-05-01T17:08:00.004+08:00

I AM GOING TO LET YOU HAVE A TASTE OF WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS.

I AM NOT GOING TO CARE OR GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU!

YOU ARE REALLY TESTING MY PATIENCE!!!

YOU ARE DRIVING ME NUTS!

GEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!

Ending?

2009-04-26T15:51:00.006+08:00

I don't think that you realise everything is falling apart. Everything just changed in few days without you noticing it but I can see it,baby. I am feeling so down right now till I am speechless. No words can describe all the feelings I am having now. I am not going to shed a tears for you cause I know nothing changes even I cry my lungs out. And you will never know that I am crying for you.

You care about your own stuffs too much until you abandon me. You don't give a damn about me,right? I have waited long enough and been patience for quite some time. I really don't know if I can go on like this.

I am really trying hard to be understanding and can't you care for me a little bit more? Or love me as you really really adore me?

Sicko!

2009-03-21T12:24:00.002+08:00

Oh no,I'm sick right now. I'm having a cough and a flu. I guess soon I will get my fever because right now I'm feeling very uncomfortable and weak. I don't even have the strength to stand up or do anything. I just want to lay on my bed and get more sleep! But, I need to go for my work at 5.15pm today and I'm feeling damn lazy to get my ass up for work.

Ugh,I'm feeling half dead now! Gosh!!!!

Why Now?

2009-03-20T20:09:00.014+08:00

Isn't this is adorable?

Feel the love in the air!

We will never be apart.

Can love be as beautiful as this?

For the past few days I have been thinking to myself what if I get to know you first instead of him? Will I be happier now? I'm pretty sure that you will :

- love me more
- appreciate me more
- care for me more
- think of me more
- miss me more

Why now only you walk into my life? Why can't you be a little bit earlier? Everything will be different now if I get to know you much much earlier before I met him. Deep down in my heart I know that you will be a lovely guy who will be loyal to his girlfriend and will make her feel secure all the time whenever she is with you. And, the girl will be surrounded by love and everyday will be a Valentine Day to her.

Every morning,the girl's day will be brighten up by all the love messages and morning kisses you send to her. This can make the girl feels adored and being truly sincerely loved by someone dear to her. The girl will be proud to introduce you to her friends as a BOYFRIEND and not some random guys she knows.

I also can feel that whenever the girl is in your arms, she will feel warm and comfortable and a disaster day will turn into "it-doesn't-matter-anymore" day. You will be a guy who will make everythings right whenever there's something went wrong. You will be a guy who will NEVER EVER abandon his girlfriend no matter how busy you are. You will still keep your girlfriend in your heart and let her image running in your mind even when you are sleeping, you will still think of her and dream about her. You will be the guy who will never make your girlfriend worried about you cause you will send a message or give a call to your boo just to tell her that you are actually still alive and doing fine. LOL.

You will be the guy who will hold on tight to his girlfriend's hand and will not let it go eventhough there's a hurricane strike Malaysia. You will be the guy who will gently hold on to his girlfriend's heart as you know it is very fragile and will be broken into million pieces once you hurt her feelings and you will never able to put it back together those broken pieces.

And and and..The most important thing is you do definitely will always say those 3 magical words to your baby girl in order to let her know and feels how important she is to you.

What's Wrong?

2009-03-11T19:50:00.009+08:00

I don't know why you keep on running through my mind but I DO NOT miss you. Is it a good thing that I'm not missing you? Last time I will miss you like crazy eventhough we didn't talk for like even 1 hour!! About 3 days have passed and yet I didn't get any messages from you. What is wrong with you now? Or is it me? Or is it both of us?

*Deep breath*

I really wanna let go of everything. Is it ok with you if I say I wanna stop all these? I know you were hurt twice. I want to give all my love to you but you doesn't give me an opportunity to do so. The time that we've spent together were just like a dream to me cause I can't feel any love from you. I guess we are not meant for each other. And, I do doubt about you sometimes. I don't feel secure at all when I'm with you cause I don't completely trust you!

You never accomplish all the promises that you've made. You just speak it out but you never really actually done it! *ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS*

The best way to make myself feels better is to stop contacting you or think about you. I shoud just erase you from my mind and act like we are just friends. If you do really love me...no,I don't think you love me at all.

Yippie!

2009-03-10T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hey guys,I'm back again after I neglected my blog for about a month!! Hahahaha. Well, I am not sure if there will be anyone of you reading my blog but I do know I do have lots of SILENT READERSSSS!!

Ahah,Let's see what I am going to crap about today. Hehehe. I will just start of how am I feeling today since SPM results will be out in 2 days time. I'm sure you all already know that cause I know some of you might be scaring your friends,brothers,sisters or cousins. Haha. Hmm,I am not feeling worried/nervous/scared. Can this be a good sigb or a bad one? I really don't know because this is not the usual me as in I always will get nervous whenever I'm getting my results. It doesn't matter if it just a monthly tests results or final examinations results. =.="

To let you all know, I will be flying up to Bangkok the next day after I got my results (13th March-16th March 2009). What a bad luck huh? LOL. Whatever it is, I will just hope that I will get good results for my SPM and I able to hit the target that I've been aiming for for the past 2 years! And also as a PAY BACK for all the SH*Ts I've been through during the month of SPM. Hehehehe.

INSOMNIA!!!

2009-01-15T01:53:00.002+08:00

Oh my gawd! Ppl I'm struggling right now cause I COULDN'T SLEEP!!

Right now is going to be 2 a.m. I tried to get some sleep just now but my eyes are wide open!! ARRR! I'm feeling very very tired yet I just couldn't shut my eyes. What a sad sad sad case. And..now I'm feeling hungry but I don't feel like eating. =.=''. I think I'm going INSANE for no reason!! Hahaha.

Hmm,for these past two days..something shocking happened and I'm feeling happy about it. Hehehehe. Well,can consider as a MIRACLE laaaa~~ Kekekekeke. I really really never expect this to happen and this is the FIRST! I hope this won't be the last as well cause I don't want my mood got destroyed! I want to maintain this happy moment forever and ever and ever and ever and ever!! BUT...don't worry..I can bet RM105467487655315465463187496512 with you that this "miracle" won't last long one. Hahaha. So get ready for my upcoming blog when I express my anger about it. Hahahahaha. It will be very very soon,aite? ^^v

I'm sure most of you ppl will be wondering what this gila girl talking. Wakakaka. I know right now there are lots of question marks popping out on your head. I can see them from here!! Hohoho. I can help you to get rid all those question marksssss! You guys can just forget about it,don't think about it and don't bother! Just read this and buat bodoh. Hahaha. I'm serious about this you know.I'm not joking!

God!

2009-01-12T22:47:00.005+08:00

Damn..now I'm really feeling bored at home. REALLY REALLY FREAKING BORED!

I thought I can rely on someone to get rid of my boredom but it seems like is not working though. Hehehe. I guess I have to have my own plan to get rid of my own boredom since I can't spend it with my beloved ones.

There are bunch of movies I wanna watch it during CNY or maybe before or maybe AFTER!!.XD Let's see.. Here's the list :-
1)Inkheart
2)Underworld:Rise of the Lycans
3)The Punisher:War of Zone
4)Angels And Demons
5)Transformers:Revenge Of The Fallen

And people,there is a good news I wanna announce..I'm actually getting better now. I'm not feeling sad anymore. =). Hehe. This part only "some people" know what I'm talking about. They are the one who comforted me and being there all the time when I need them the most.

Well,obviously there is a reason behind why I'm getting better. This is because I saw something which completely makes me wanna move on with my life and just forget about stupid things which have been making me like the unusual me. Hahaha. I hope you guys get what I wanna say.

BUT..I do still need time to be fully recovered right? Hahaha. Hmm, maybe I can do it better this time when I start my college life. Weeee,wish me luck peeps! Muaksss..

And god,please let me meet this "guy" again!! PLSSSSS!!!

Giving up oredi?

2009-01-09T20:56:00.002+08:00

Alright, right now I'm feeling so frustrated & mad for some reasons which I'm not going to say it out here. Grrr, I really wanna hit something to release my anger!!

I've been feeling very tired lately not because of my work or anything but WAITING & TOLERANCE! I had enough and feel like giving up! Whenever I said I wanna give up, I just can't do it cause inside my heart said "It's ok,just tahan la. Everything will get better one day when this thing is settled." BUT....until now this matter haven't settle! I want to settle it as soon as possible yet I don't have the chance/time since that fella seems to be "lost".

This fella has been "lost" for about a month already and this sucks cause my feelings get shitty each day. I just can't wait to leave my house and have some fun to get rid of myself from thinking stupid stuff which I know it will going to happen one day or maybe SOON! After me going through all this waiting and stuff, I got to know how "other people" feel like. The feelings that I'm feeling right now really can get this fella get a bad bad bad bad bad scolding from me. *This HUGEEE volcano going to EXPLODE one day!!*

Okay, right now I'm going to get some sleep or maybe just cry to make myself feel better. Sigh,I wish I can lean on someone's shoulder right now. A guy will do. Hahahaha. I ain't joking.

Another thing is I am feeling regret now for not doing something. Hehehe. I think if I did that "something" back then..I guess I will be happier right now. =D

Hmm, people feel the love in the air!! *Breathe in* <3>

ciow

1ST!

2009-01-08T10:28:00.004+08:00

Orite. Yesterday my dad bought back Lee hom's latest album called "Heart Beat". Erm, this was the 1st Lee hom's album collection. Well, all this long I'm a fan of him but I didn't buy any of his album. I don't know why, please don;t come and ask me! Hehehe.

The front cover of the album

All right, the contents in these 2 boxes are different. The box on the left consist of a book full of his pictures and chinese words which I'm not able to read them and also a calendar. Those pictures in the book and calendar are freaking cool,okay? He is damn handsome. Hahahaha. Then the box on the right consist of his CD,a huge poster and a lyrics booklet. XD XD. This album is damn cool though. Hehehe.

The book full of his pictures & the calendar

CD, poster and lyrics booklet

This is the poster

Basically, thats all from the album. Most of his slow songs in this album are nice & very soothing especially Everything & heart beat. You guys can check them out whenever you are feeling bored. =)

ciow

Uhh Lala!

2009-01-06T21:59:00.006+08:00

What I have been doing for the whole day? Wanna know? Well,I'm sure you guys are not interested right? Hehe. But I will still type it out though since I'm feeling very bored now and I want to rest my mind for thinking about *dot dot dot* Kekekeke. It is not something dirty,okay? Muahahaha.

LET'S START THE BALL ROLLING!!

Today at about 7.45 a.m., my dad knocked on my room door and asked me to take care of the baby while he is on his way to work and my mom went to market to shop for some groceries! =D With the frustrated feelings in me I put my head back on my pillow after my dad left the house. Hehehe. Yeah,I'm kinda lazy to wake up in the morning during holidays. Haha. Can't help it! IS A DISEASE!!!! A SERIOUS one though. Wakakakaka.

Then,at 8.15 a.m.,the baby start making noise and I rushed to my mom's room to check her out. THANK GOD! My mom got back at that time.Phew! Lucky me. Hahahaha. Of course I went back to my bed to get back to my wonderful dreamland.

After feeling satisfied of sleeping,I woke up at 12.06 p.m. Hahaha. You guys must be thinking I'm a weirdo who always being so specific with the time. Kekeke. F.Y.I, I am a weirdo and I do always look at the time. You guys should try to ask my friends. Hahaha. Then, I went to brush my teeth and washed my face and..I DON'T tidy my bed! XD XD XD.

Guess what I had for my brunch? Nah,is not sushi or ginseng. Hahaha. I ate NASI LEMAK!! Nyum Nyum *saliva dripping* Erm, I didn't manage to eat finish it cause I drank too much water due to I added too much sambal. >.<
But I don't feel regret from doing that cause I'm a Spicy Queen! *rawwrrrr*

Around 12.45 p.m. I switch on the computer and watch some romance+comedy movie that is WILD CHILD! It was a nice movie though cause Alex Pettyfer is acting in that movie!! <3
Yeah,I love to watch movies a lot!! It's GENETIC! My dad loves to watch movies as well.

After the great movie, I surfed the net for awhile. And as you know after that I'm typing out this blog while messaging my friend. =D =D.
That's all for now!!

_ciow_

Happy schooling peeps!

2009-01-05T13:04:00.003+08:00

Wow,today is already MONDAY!!

Today when I was on my way home from work,I can see lots of students standing under the hot sun waiting for their bus to come. Everything looks new on them such as their uniform,shoes,socks,name tag,school badge and etc. etc.

While I was looking at them,I flashback to when I first stepped into my secondary school. I was excited about my new form 1 life cause I'm new to the environment ma. Hehehe. I remember I was damn blur in the school cause I don't have any friends but luckily I manageto meet back some of my best friends. Unfortunately, we separated cause my friends are going to morning session while I stay in afternoon session.

I'm feeling very happy today cause I can see most of the parents put a smile on their face. They seems to be very excited to send their children to school as in some of them just started their kindergarten,some going to secondary school and some going to primary school. Well,maybe they are just happy to "kick" their children away from home so they can just relax for a moment after all the headache caused by the "little creatures". Hahaha.

*Deep breath*

Right now I'm missing my busy life as a Ass. Head Prefect II. Every Monday I will run up and down the school hall just to get ready the PA system for the assembly. Yeah,I do sweat a lot on Monday. Haha. A morning exercise for me! =D

Hmmmmmmmm...

All I do know is relax at home and plan what should I do for tomorrow as inI have so much free timeeee..WEEEEE!!!

YATTA!!

2009-01-04T19:41:00.002+08:00

Well,tomorrow is 5th of Jan 2009. All the primary & secondary dudes are starting school!! hahaha. I just wanna wish you guys have fun in school and do do some crazy things cause after about 2 months break I'm sure you guys missed your friends and those chit chatting right?

Time seems to be flying very fast! So treasure every moment you guys have & appreciate the one you loved the most!

Last but not least,I wanna wish those who are taking UPSR,PMR,SPM and STPM this year!! STUDY SMART!!! =D

I've completed 3 tasks(UPSR,PMR & SPM). Hehe. I don't think I will be going form 6. XD XD.

All the best peeps!!

Love,
Lisa

You will never know!

2008-12-28T23:58:00.002+08:00

I don't know how should I start this blog cause I have too much to say till I don't know where should I say.

Right now,you will never know that how suffering am I to stop myself from thinking about you,your face,your smile,your laughter & your voice. For the past few days,all I can think of is you! I tried before to get you out of my mind but it seems like I CAN'T DO IT! Do you know how frustating is it?

I also been wondering if you ever feel the same way as I do know. I guess the answer is NO cause you doesn't even seems to bother replying me message. I guess eventhoug I'm dead, you wont even bother to care/attend my funeral.

I don't know what you have been doing lately. Is it that you don't want me anymore? Am I too annoying? Is it you are bored with me so you want to dump me(already)? Or you actually found someone else who is better than me?

Do you know that this is the first time I so cared about a guy who I loved the most? Do you know that before I go to sleep I will always say my prayer in my heart hoping that you are fine? Do you know that everytime I wake up from my sleep the first person I ever think of is YOU? Do you know how much I wanted to hug you everyday? Do you know I always wanted to say those 3 magical words to you?

I really wanted to know if you are taking this relationship seriously? Cause I do and this is the first time I'm doing so. I also wanted to know that if you mean it when you said you love me or is it you are just saying it for fun?

You told me before not to leave you. But,now it seems like you are trying to leave me without saying a single word.

Do you know that right now all I can think of is ending this relationship with you? I guess you will be happy if I said "I wanna break up with you". I'm not sure if this is a wise solution. I still can't let go of you cause my love for you is just too deep and it gets deeper everyday!

Lastly,I wanna ask you a few questions :
1)Do you miss me?
2)Do you love me?
3)Do you wanna continue this relationship or end it?
4)Will you be more caring towards me?
5)Will you be there for me whenever I need you?
6)Have you ever wonder how am I doing?
7)Have you ever staying up all night just thinking about me?
8)ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME?

What?

2008-12-22T20:49:00.002+08:00

About 15 minutes ago..I discovered something that really breaks my heart. Ermm,I'm a lil bit angry. Just a lil bit okay? Right now all I wanna do is don't think about anything & just forgets it! But luckily I discover it early if not..I guess I will the one get hurt in the end.

I'm hoping I can talk about this matter with someone who had experience in it & ask for their advise.

-Peace-

X'mas X'mas

2008-12-22T15:38:00.003+08:00

Wow,time flies huh? Going to be end of year 2008. X'mas is just around the corner. I don't what to do on that day & I'm feeling very lazy to plan what should i do on that day. I never ever celebrate X'mas before,k? Hehehe. I know I'm kinda cacated. =D

Anyway,I just wanna wish everyone out there MERRY X'MAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Have fun to the MAX!!

WEEEE!!!

2008-12-18T11:19:00.002+08:00

What a sunny day today when I woke up at 8.30am. Well,I was forced to wake up this early cause I have to baby sit my cousin sis who is just 9 months old. *UGHHGHH* With a heavy head I leave my bed with my half eyes open. Haha.

Without brushing my teeth & wash my face,I went into my bro's room to online!! After I lazy around in the house till 9.30am,I went to brush my teeth. I was still blur that time. I almost MISTAKEN my facial wash as my TOOTHPASTE!! Hahahha.. Dont worry, I didnt brush my teeth with my facial wash!

When I was baby sitting the baby,all she do was bababababababababababababababa-ing the whole time. Hahaha. Yeah,she is damn damn damn KAWAII. Then about 10 am i put her to sleep while I was in my room booming my IPOD. Hehehe.

Thats all I did so far.I don;t know why suddenly I have the "semangat" to post blog. hahaha

I hope...

2008-12-17T14:56:00.004+08:00

Here it comes again!

Everytime I wake up early in the morning hoping that I will get a miracle that is you sending me a messaging by asking me if i did slept well.
Everytime when I'm down,I hope that I can lean on your shoulder and cry out as much as I want.
Everytime when I'm feeling lonely,I hope that you will be there for me and telling me stories/cracking jokes to get rid of my boredom.
Everytime is me the one said "I love you" ,I hope it was you the one said that to me first instead of me saying it to you.

Whenever I send you a message,I hope that you will reply me as fast as possible & will give me a reply!
I always wished that you will be more caring like my brother did to her girlfriend.
I always wanted you to send me sweet messages like what a normal couples will do.
I always wonder if we are really meant for each other, it seems like you doesn't care about me.

Whenever I send you a message,I have a feeling that I'm an annoying b**** .
I always wanted you the one that care for me more instead of my friends!
With all your actions, I don't know if I'm your girlfriend or just a toy for you to play around whenever you are feeling bored.
I used to think back the moment where you send me those messages saying that how much you missed me and how much you love me.

All I can think of right now is those days where I sat in front of my mobile hoping to see your message popping out on my screen & those days were LONG for me!
Happy moments I had with you? Are there any? I guess there's none!

My heart aches a lot whenever I think of breaking up with you.
I don't know if I can carry on with my life without you around cause I'm already ADDICTED to YOU!
I don't know if I can live my day without talking to you or messaging you.
I always wanted to text you but I tried not to cause I know that you are busy with your stuff.

Right now I don't know why I wanted to cry so much.
I really wished I can sit in front of you and tell you how I'm feeling right now.
Maybe is better for us not to talk to each other for a moment.
I will wait till the day you send me a message/talk to me.
I'm not going to talk to you unless you start it first.

what a B.O.R.I.N.G day!

2008-12-09T15:47:00.002+08:00

Today I'm feeling very very very bored at home. And and and..lazy to do things either. So what I've done for the whole day? I keep on Gokusen-ing lo. Is a JDODRAMA. Is nice & funny. Haha. The main actor is very handsome! LOL.

Besides that,I also listening to I LOVE X'MAS by Tommy Heavenly6 & Bu Chao Bu Yong Hua Qian by JJ Lin. Then, don't know why suddenly only "A.L" come across my mind. *I bet you guys must be wondering what the hell is A.L,riteee?? Hehehehehe. I will not tell you guys what is it or who is it. Will just let you guys be in mystery. XD.

Well,if you guys are smart enough to at least get some clue. I will tell you guys lo. Muahahahaha. *Sigh* Right now I really feeling damn damn damn bored-la.

*deep breath*

Love Story by Taylor Swift

2008-12-04T11:50:00.002+08:00

*the one that highlighted with pink colour is the part where i LIKE it!!*

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

Midvalley!

2008-12-03T22:40:00.003+08:00

My bro and I were feeling bored today so both of us decided to lepak at Midvalley. We planned to watch 2 movies. They are Twilight & Bolt. But we only managed to watch twilight & Igor. This is because Bolt is only available at 11.30pm. Come on,we where got so free go watch 11.30pm show. Hahaha.

This was my first time watching 2 movies in a day. It was really very tiring! We watched the same advertisements for TWICE!! Siao eh.

Igor was kinda boring for me whereas twilight was kinda nice for me cause its about ROMANCE! I like the ending of twilight! Is an happy ending! Hahahaha. While watching both movies..my mind was thinking about something till I cannot concentrate on the movies. It was damn frustrating! *U guys better dont ask what was I thinking cause I'm not gonna tell u guys BLUEK!*

About 6.30 pm only we ciow from Midvalley. And and and..I was starving like hell when I was watching Twilight. Hahahaha

Memory!

2008-12-02T10:41:00.005+08:00

Yesterday I started my work at my ex-tuition centre. It was fun though cause I can control the whole class by myself! Haha. All my students are Std 4,5 & 6. They look so tiny & short. SO CUTE!!! Yesterday was just 4 of them came. Then,my tuition teacher(who is my boss now) said next week we'll have about 16-30 students *wahhh,so "little" meh?* Hahaha.

About 9.30am,one of the students asked me if I'm hungry. Her name is Priscilla. She is cute though. Kekeke. After that we keep on talk about food in the class cause both of us didnt take our breakfast. Muahahaha. Bout 10.30am all of us balik rumah lo.

BUT..BUT..I didnt balik rumah oo. Hehe. Mana I pergi? I go out kai kai with my boi boi lo. *shhsshh,dun tell anyone ya ^^v* Let's keep it as a secret!!. Hehehe.

Both of us went to watch Madagascar:Escape 2 Africa at Midvalley. The movie was kinda nice though cause all the "creatures" in that movie so KAWAIIIIII. Hahahaha. When the movie was about to end,then he suddenly grabbed my hand. I was kinda shocked at first then later feels nothing..:p It feels nice when he was grabbing my hand bcoz his hand is very very soft. I hope that I can freeze that moment and wished that he will never ever let go of my hand. XD.

After that,we went to grab a bite at a Japanese restaurant (Zanmei). Before that, we went to buy some donuts at Big Apple. Hehehe. My favourite! Selepas makan,we went to a bookstore to look for a book called "Twilight". Unfortunately,it was out of stock! We spend quite some time at the bookstore. I was looking for my horror manga but to my disappointment I couldn't find it. I gave up & go look for my boi boi lo. My boi boi was reading some comics. I found him he was funny & cute. I don't why la. Don't ask me ya. Is just a feeling only~~

Then,we headed home. I can't remember what time was it. Maybe around 3.30-4.00pm. He fetched me home! *WEEEEEE*

As a conclusion,I did have fun with him on our first date. I guess I'm falling in love this time! *evil laugh*

What the H*ll??!!

2008-11-21T13:30:00.003+08:00

Since the first day I made up my mind to take nursing course..everyone was banging me by asking me if I will be able to manage it? I have to clean this la,do this la,do that la..bla bla bla bla..

What's wrong with you people?!?!

Now is me the one who is going to take the course not you guys! Well,my family members also not quite supportive especially my mom and bro. My mom keep on asking me if I really had made up my mind to take this course? She said is very tiring if I do nursing course. I have a feeling that she doesn't wants me to take this course. Is just because I'm in science stream & she wanted to be a doctor or a pharmacist.

So far only my dad the one who told me that if this is the course I wanna take then work hard on it & is my choice to take whatever course I want. And, he also won't everyday bring up the topic about me being a nurse.

My mom and bro always bang me by saying that "with this kind of attitude of you,you can become a nurse or not? I can't imagine you becoming a nurse eh." What the f*ck? I'm sick & tired of all their banging and stuff la. Can't they be more supportive? I can't hang on anymore cause I had ENOUGH! Now I'm damn damn damn pissed!

To get rid all their stupid jokes about me & my nursing course I will just keep quiet and let them bang only. I will sumbat my earphones in to my ear and read my storybook! I will act just real cool.

I think one day I will stand up and said "ok ok ok,I wont take nursing course. I will take something else,k? You guys just cant stop talking about it. It's so annoying! Very very very "fann"!"

WHERE?

2008-11-14T17:07:00.000+08:00

Today I went to the library and I didn't see him today! But I can see his friends are there studying but he's no where to be seen.Hehe. Kinda miss him though..lol..>.<
What a silly me to like a guy who I dont even know him..haha..well,that is LISA!! The SILLY GIRL!!

UHH!! Who is that guy sitting over there?

2008-11-14T11:56:00.004+08:00

Well, as you all know I've been to MBPJ library preparing for my SPM which I'm sitting for it now. For the past few days, there's a guy caught my eyes in the library. I don't know his name or which scool he's studying. But, I know he is a funny guy & Form 5 this year. I always bump into him whenever I go to library. I always sit at the same spot so that I can see him & his friends. I know that his friends are also funny people cause I can see them having fun in the library.

Ermm,he's not handsome or hot,k? Yeah,I dont really go for handsome/hot guys cause I know I'm not lucky to get them. I know my quality ok? Where got handsome/hot guys fall for me? Is impossible! Most of them will go for hot looking chicks! Too bad that I'm NOT HOT.

Ok,I need to go to library already. Ciow guys!..

What a KILLER!!

2008-11-12T17:17:00.003+08:00

Today I sat for my both english paper 1 & 2. It was ok though the paper. I was enjoying myself answering all the questions. I found out that some of the passages was very interesting. One of it was about a leopard attack & the other one was about seeing ghosts.LOL.

Later on,I sat for my history paper 2. It was a killer paper cause I dunno what to write as my answers. Luckily, I was able to crap & crap & crap. While doing my history paper..I can see most of my friends got stuck & some just give up & leave out the questions which they cant do. I was trying my best to answer all the questions. I revised my history like a mad person but nothing much came out. It came out those questions which i DID NOT study!! So yeah,I can say hallelujah & meet my nenek moyang in heaven. Hahaha.

While on my way back home from school, I was surprised to see a message sent from piggy. I never expect him to send me a message,k? Hehe. After all the history paper..I have no strength left to scratch my scalp/wash my hair & my eyelid seem to be very heavy. Right now I can feel that my shoulders are much lighter after finishing my History paper. Tomorrow I'll be sitting for my Maths paper!! Can't wait to answer them! Hahahaha.

1st day of spm!!

2008-11-11T18:24:00.004+08:00

Yeah! Today started my BM papers and Sejarah paper 1. Don't ask me about it cause I have no feelings and comment on the paper. I just did everything like a usual examination. Yesterday, I cried inside in the car cause I was so tensed up & stucked in a heavy traffic jam. After today, I'm back to my normal mood again & feeling more confident.

Today was my memorable day cause my beloved teacher,Pn.Gita gave me a small gift. I was touched cause I never expect my teacher will buy me a gift. Well, of course my other friends also had it (kath,candice,vky & wan ling). Teacher also told my friends that whenever someone ask us about the gift..we should say that is was a gift from our friend! WOW!! Teacher take us as her friends!! My friend also told me that teacher cried on friday[7/11/08](the day i was absent) when she was thanking all of us for our dirty jokes & gossips!..hahahahaha..

I hugged teacher twice today.And, I will miss her after i left the school. Teacher also said that we can call her by her name(Gita) after we work!! hehehehe. I start working on the Dec so I can call teacher..GITA!! Yeah,she is my discipline teacher!! :p Is damn cool right to be so close with discipline teacher.LOL. She is a sporting teacher & very open-minded!

I LOVE YOU TEACHER!!!

Fell Asleep!

2008-11-06T19:39:00.002+08:00

Today was my graduation day. It was damn boring during the speech time. I can barely open my eyes. Luckily, I sat at the back row so noone will notice me sleeping..^^, I can sleep anywhere & anytime. Hahahaha. Yes, I'm a PIG! *oink oink*

Well, SPM is a few more days away. I was scared & worried. All I can think of is the last day of SPM. As I know, Science stream will finish their papers then only the art students. I was glad when I saw the timetable. If the exam days drag toooo looonngg, I will start to feel lazy to study! Hehehe. The earlier the better! My last paper is on the 27th Nov. It is EST paper. I only need to sit for SPM for 8 days! Yea,it was fast.

To my disappointment, my trip to PD was cancelled due to fully booked of rooms. I was so looking forward to it and is now all GONE!! GONE!! But luckily I still can have barbeque at my friend's hse. Hmm, at last I need all u guys good luck & support so that I can do well in my SPM.

`ciow`

TIRED!

2008-11-05T22:26:00.003+08:00

What a tiring day today. At school we did our rehearsal for our graduation which is tomorrow. It was damn bored and all of us start making noise in the hall. Cracking jokes & making fun of our discipline teacher. Haha. I know we girls are BAD!

There are rumours spreading around saying that my "beloved" teacher (let's call her Pn.ABC) who's age 47 is PREGNANT! When my friend told me that I started to laugh and making fun of it. I asked my friend if it's real. She said not sure. My friend told me that she heard other teachers was talking about Pn.ABC pregnancy. Today in the hall, all of my friends keep on staring at her stomach. It was very funny though cause we are making our prediction if she's really pregnant. I told my friend that she's already 47 yrs old, ain't she's in the age of menopause? I was serious at that time & my friends started to laugh non-stop =.=''

At 3, I went to MPBJ library with my bro. I met lots of my ex-senior. They still look the same though. Same size & height. Hehe. I went up to 2nd floor to find a seat. After that, I took out my Bio Success book & start revising. Then, there's a group of teenage sitting across my table was making hell lots of noise. They can't shut their gap. But, I don't mind la cause I biasa study in noisy environment. My class always make noise wan. Hahahaha.

Bout 4.45 pm, my bro and I walked to BSL to get some drinks cause the librarys' cafeteria was closed. My bro bought a can of nescafe whereas I got a can of JUSTEA! While enjoing our drink, we walked to Popular cause my bro wanna buy a few pens. Then, we chilled at our aunt's house which is just located next to Popular. After a few minutes, we headed back to library to continue our studies.

By 6.15pm, both of us ciow from library and headed to La Salle school to fetch my younger bro. Selepas itu,kami semua pulang rumah dgn selamat. hahahahaha.

GRADUATION!!!

2008-11-03T22:53:00.001+08:00

On this coming thursday (6th of NOV 2008), my school is organizing a graduation for all the SPM candidates! I'm looking forward to it! I will upload some photos if i manage to take some..^^,

Love Love and Huggy Huggy

Relieved + Sleepless..

2008-11-03T22:29:00.004+08:00

Wow..for these past few days,I'm back to normal again without those nonsense stuff in my head. Haha. I'm feeling much better now and all I wanna do now is concentrate on my SPM which is just about 7 more days to go. Yeah,I'm feeling very stressed out lately. I can't sleep/eat well. I slept at 4 last night and woke up at 6.20 am. I know you guys will be shocked. Muahahahaha. I think I'm having insomnia. I'm serious bout this!

I slept the whole day in school cause none of my teachers came into my class except Chem & BI. Lately, I've not thinking about my piggy. Haha. I'm not missing him that much as I do last time. Is this because I'm just distracted by my SPM or my love to him is just fading away slowly without me noticing it?? I'm not like an idiot already who used to wait for his messages. Well, maybe he is not the one for me after all. I should hunt for another one next year! Haha. Maybe I got lucky & get a HAWT guy as my bf! I will be happy by that time. *big laugh* .

Hmm..yesterday I saw two hawt guys at Jaya 33. Both of them are brothers. They almost look alike. The way they dressed are very simple but NICE! Yup, I like simple things. I always think that simple is the best. That's why I don't put on make up when i attent to a wedding or any special function. Haha. But my mom will force me to do it though. I guess thats all for now. Feel kinda sleepy~~

Going Mad!

2008-10-30T20:08:00.002+08:00

Today I had tuition for 4 hours from 3-7. At first i really hated it cause I feel damn bored & panic bout my upcoming Spm.*deep breath*. I guess I have to tahan till i finish my Spm then I will have my FREEDOM! Right now all I can think of is my PD trip with my schoolmates & classmates. XD. My girls and I planned that trip & all of us are looking forward for this trip. We girls was so excited bout it cause this will be our first trip far away from home WITHOUT PARENTS!!

There's a problem though. That is one of my friend(let's call her "A") wanted guys to go with us while the other one(let's call her B) didn't agree. B told me that this trip doesn't include outsiders will be better cause this PD trip is meant for us the TPIANS!! To tell the truth, I agree with B. I know why A wants guys to go so they can protect us. Haha. I know we girls don't need guys protection because we all are like TB!! (If you guys don't know what that means, come & ask me!) Anyway, I don't really mind if there are guys or no guys cause all I want is have a memorable & happy trip with my friends.

I didn't mention this matter to A though cause I don't want A & B fight or argue bout this silly matter. So right now I don't know what should I do & don't wanna think about it. That's all for now. I'm waiting for my bubble tea :p

~ciow~

BORING~~

2008-10-29T23:06:00.007+08:00

Wow,seems like time flies huh? So fast that today is already Wednesday and tomorrow will be Thursday (well,who doesn't knows that :P). I'm feeling damn bored at home cause i have nothing to do & I don't have the mood to study. My mind seems to be occupied by many silly things.

Let's check out what I've done the whole day! It will be bored hearing out my routines. Haha. Well, today i woke up sharp at 12. Then I check my phone, wash my face, brush my teeth & MAKAN! Haha. I LOVE to EAT !! Well, who doesn't like to eat? Hmm, I think I know. Those are bulimia & anorexia doesn't like their food. What a waste. I'm not criticising them,k? Food is something which are freaking delicious & YUMMY! Right now I can imagine a bowl of UDON in front of me. Haha. I crazy bout Japanese food.

Ok. Let's come back here on my routine. After makan, I turn on the tv & check if there's any nice movie to watch. Sadly, there's none. I switched off the tv and went into my room staring at my phone & listening to my IPOD. Bout 10 minutes later, I online and chat with my baby boi of course. Keke. Suddenly, he didn't reply me so i decided to watch a DVD. The movie was nice though. The movie is called "Chocolate Fury". I never thought it will be interesting as my brother told me.

After the movie, I go makan my dinner and waited for James (my best buddy) to message me. While sms-ing him, I'm watching a HK movie "La Lingerie". One of the guy in that movie is freaking HAWT! I can't get my eyes off him. Yeah, I know I sounds like a pervert here but he is damn damn damn hawt! Hahahaha.

Then, I chilled in my bro's room and play with the camera. While playing the camera, I was waiting for my bro to pass me the comp cause I wanna update my blog! Here so am I. TADAAA.

Me in my bro's room

Secret Number 486 (Password to my heart) kekeke

2008-10-28T17:44:00.004+08:00

I like the meaning of this song..Enjoy yourself peeps! You guys can check out this song by googling "younha secret number 486"

Don't tell me that you miss me every hour
I don't understand scripted dating lines
Don't tell me over a hundred times you love me
You're ruining our relationship
Girls aren't as naive as you think
Making us happy is slightly different.
Express your love 4 times a day
Laugh 8 times

Kiss me 6 times
It's the only password to my heart
No one else can know it
Only you can have me
You are my secret boy
Don't appear out of nowhere
I don't always get surprised
When you see my face without make-up
I even get mad
Guys aren't as fragile as girls
They believe they can do whatever they want and it'll be alright.
Express your love 4 times a day
Laugh 8 times

Kiss me 6 times
It's the only password to my heart
No one else can know it
Only you can have me
You are my secret boy
Don't give up because it's too hard
Understand that I only want you
Girls are always deceived by flirty guys
I hope you become someone who can console me after you trouble
Express your love 4 times a day
Laugh 8 times

Kiss me 6 times
It's the only password to my heart
No one else can know it
Only you can have me
You are my secret boy

Run Aground (Ge Qian)

2008-10-28T16:22:00.003+08:00

This is my fav song from jay chou. I like this MV too. Is very touchy..*sob*sob*

The sky that hasn't cleared up for a while
As usual retains your smile
Cried before
Yet no way to bury guilt
The kite has run aground in the overcast sky
Missing you, still waiting to be saved
I'm pulling the string
Reviewing the tenderness you gave
Loneliness that is insolating
Laughing at me for not being able to give a promise
How come, how come
You unexpectedly forgave me
I can only forever be reading the lines
Reading the hurt I gave you
I cannot forgive myself
Then ask you to regard that I'm already not here
I open my eyes
Looking at the empty space
Forget the expectation you had towards me
Finished reading dependency
I will leave very soon

What was I thinking?

2008-10-28T16:03:00.002+08:00

I'm acting very weird today. Every half an hour I will check my phone and see if there's any messages. To my disappointment, there is NONE!! Well,I thought maybe I'm just feeling bored or something but then i realised is a NO. Haha. Yup,I'm waiting for someone and I'm eager to talk to him. Every now and then I keep on checking my phone and hoping there will be a message from him but I know he won't message me at this hour..Hehe.. ^^,

Today's weather was freaking hot and I'm sweating all the time. Besides that, I also kinda worried about him and wanna remind him not to forget to drink plenty of water. Haha. I know I'm weird. Sadly, I don't have the courage to tell him that cause I feel myself damn annoying & irritating to him. Everytime I always wondered if he will think of me or miss me. Then,my mind keep on telling me neither.

If one day..ONE DAY he message me and saying that he missed me. I will be over the moon *moo*moo*. LOL. If that day did really come true, I think I'll be crying cause of happiness I feel within me. XD

WEE! Welcome to Chiang chiang family!

2008-10-27T15:32:00.004+08:00

(My IPOD Classic 160GB )

Hehe. On the 12th of Sept(my b'day)..something shocking happened..that is..........MY IPOD!! I never thought that my daddy will buy it for me. *laugh laugh laugh*. Well,this is a secret between my bros,my dad and me. Yeah!My mom didn't know that my dad bought an IPOD for me cause she will scold my dad for sure.:D. I know you guys will think that we are BAD! I don't care..=p

My IPOD cost about RM1400..well,this include the cover and a portable charger la..I also scolded my dad for buying it. This is because lately my family having some financial prob but now everything is settled!*wink wink*..Anyhow,I wanna tell my daddy that "AISHITERU~~!!"..Haha..If I can,I will give him a big huggiezx and a big big big KISS~!

DIWALI or DIVALI?

2008-10-27T10:32:00.002+08:00

Yo,HAPPY DEEPAVALI to everyone out there (no matter you are a chinese,malay,christian or singh or anything). Just have fun and go crazy to the max ya!!

ciow ciow..^^

Thank you!

2008-10-26T18:56:00.002+08:00

To my friend > James

Hey James,I really wanna thank you for always being there for me and comfort me. I really appreciate it. I know you always care for me as a friend. I'm glad having you by my side. and bout that "babi" guy thingy.. I'm okay with it alreay..haha..only you and me know who is that "babi" guy..kekekekeke.. ALIGATOH!!! *hugzx*hugzx*

Lots of love,
Lisa

You!

2008-10-26T18:25:00.004+08:00

Every nite and day..I always wish you will send me a message to tell me your whereabout. Yes,I do worry about you and miss you like crazy. I wonder if you feel the same way. I have a feeling that you are just fooling around with me. Everyday I sit in front of my phone wishing that one day your name will pop out. I know that ain't gonna happen. At first you care about me and always give me a call. At that time I thought you are really serious about me but right now, I feel that you are a total stranger to me. I don't know what are you thinking or what are you doing.

Eventhough I send you a message, you will give me a short reply which showing that you are not interested in me anymore and giving me a cold shoulder. Sometimes, you won't even reply my message. I really wish I can go straight up to you and give u a slap *evil laugh*. I know you are always busy with your stuff and so on but at least you can send me a message showing that you do still care about me. Why do you always make me look like a stupid fool everyday waiting for your message??!!

I really started to hate you and feel like chopping you into million pieces (just joking,wanna express my anger). I always wanted to cry but I WON'T a single drop of tears for you. This is because you DON'T worth it. And you don't deserve love from anyone at all. GO TO H#LL!!

Love?

2008-10-26T14:23:00.000+08:00

Love? What is love? I know nothing about this thing called "LOVE". All my friends said love is a great thing and cool. Well, to tell you the truth..I don't feel the same way. I think that love is a damn complicated thing which noone will understands it. I'm sorry to say this,okay? I'm just giving out my opinion. Most of my friends are coupling now and they seem to be very happy with their partner. I did really want to know how is it like to be loved by someone. I'm not talking bout family love or anything,k? Im talking bout couple love. From my friend's messages, her/his bf or gf will send "i love you","i miss you" and all those sweet messages to each other. Do they really mean it or they just feel fun reading those sweet messages from the opposite sex?

Yeah, I never date any before but I don't mind though. Heh heh. *wink wink*. A lot of people call me to find a bf. I don't know why they think at my age should start dating. Isn't 17 is too young to be involved in all this dating thingy? I know some of you guys out there don't agree with what I said. But still we aren't mature enough to love someone or take care of others. I really hope that God will reply my answer one day so I can get the meaning of L.O.V.E.

~ciow~