Sicko!

Oh no,I'm sick right now. I'm having a cough and a flu. I guess soon I will get my fever because right now I'm feeling very uncomfortable and weak. I don't even have the strength to stand up or do anything. I just want to lay on my bed and get more sleep! But, I need to go for my work at 5.15pm today and I'm feeling damn lazy to get my ass up for work.


Ugh,I'm feeling half dead now! Gosh!!!!

Why Now?

Isn't this is adorable?

Feel the love in the air!


We will never be apart.


Can love be as beautiful as this?

For the past few days I have been thinking to myself what if I get to know you first instead of him? Will I be happier now? I'm pretty sure that you will :

- love me more
- appreciate me more
- care for me more
- think of me more
- miss me more

Why now only you walk into my life? Why can't you be a little bit earlier? Everything will be different now if I get to know you much much earlier before I met him. Deep down in my heart I know that you will be a lovely guy who will be loyal to his girlfriend and will make her feel secure all the time whenever she is with you. And, the girl will be surrounded by love and everyday will be a Valentine Day to her.

Every morning,the girl's day will be brighten up by all the love messages and morning kisses you send to her. This can make the girl feels adored and being truly sincerely loved by someone dear to her. The girl will be proud to introduce you to her friends as a BOYFRIEND and not some random guys she knows.

I also can feel that whenever the girl is in your arms, she will feel warm and comfortable and a disaster day will turn into "it-doesn't-matter-anymore" day. You will be a guy who will make everythings right whenever there's something went wrong. You will be a guy who will NEVER EVER abandon his girlfriend no matter how busy you are. You will still keep your girlfriend in your heart and let her image running in your mind even when you are sleeping, you will still think of her and dream about her. You will be the guy who will never make your girlfriend worried about you cause you will send a message or give a call to your boo just to tell her that you are actually still alive and doing fine. LOL.

You will be the guy who will hold on tight to his girlfriend's hand and will not let it go eventhough there's a hurricane strike Malaysia. You will be the guy who will gently hold on to his girlfriend's heart as you know it is very fragile and will be broken into million pieces once you hurt her feelings and you will never able to put it back together those broken pieces.

And and and..The most important thing is you do definitely will always say those 3 magical words to your baby girl in order to let her know and feels how important she is to you.

What's Wrong?

I don't know why you keep on running through my mind but I DO NOT miss you. Is it a good thing that I'm not missing you? Last time I will miss you like crazy eventhough we didn't talk for like even 1 hour!! About 3 days have passed and yet I didn't get any messages from you. What is wrong with you now? Or is it me? Or is it both of us?

*Deep breath*

I really wanna let go of everything. Is it ok with you if I say I wanna stop all these? I know you were hurt twice. I want to give all my love to you but you doesn't give me an opportunity to do so. The time that we've spent together were just like a dream to me cause I can't feel any love from you. I guess we are not meant for each other. And, I do doubt about you sometimes. I don't feel secure at all when I'm with you cause I don't completely trust you!

You never accomplish all the promises that you've made. You just speak it out but you never really actually done it! *ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS*

The best way to make myself feels better is to stop contacting you or think about you. I shoud just erase you from my mind and act like we are just friends. If you do really love me...no,I don't think you love me at all.

Yippie!

Hey guys,I'm back again after I neglected my blog for about a month!! Hahahaha. Well, I am not sure if there will be anyone of you reading my blog but I do know I do have lots of SILENT READERSSSS!!

Ahah,Let's see what I am going to crap about today. Hehehe. I will just start of how am I feeling today since SPM results will be out in 2 days time. I'm sure you all already know that cause I know some of you might be scaring your friends,brothers,sisters or cousins. Haha. Hmm,I am not feeling worried/nervous/scared. Can this be a good sigb or a bad one? I really don't know because this is not the usual me as in I always will get nervous whenever I'm getting my results. It doesn't matter if it just a monthly tests results or final examinations results. =.="

To let you all know, I will be flying up to Bangkok the next day after I got my results (13th March-16th March 2009). What a bad luck huh? LOL. Whatever it is, I will just hope that I will get good results for my SPM and I able to hit the target that I've been aiming for for the past 2 years! And also as a PAY BACK for all the SH*Ts I've been through during the month of SPM. Hehehehe.