You will never know!

I don't know how should I start this blog cause I have too much to say till I don't know where should I say.

Right now,you will never know that how suffering am I to stop myself from thinking about you,your face,your smile,your laughter & your voice. For the past few days,all I can think of is you! I tried before to get you out of my mind but it seems like I CAN'T DO IT! Do you know how frustating is it?

I also been wondering if you ever feel the same way as I do know. I guess the answer is NO cause you doesn't even seems to bother replying me message. I guess eventhoug I'm dead, you wont even bother to care/attend my funeral.

I don't know what you have been doing lately. Is it that you don't want me anymore? Am I too annoying? Is it you are bored with me so you want to dump me(already)? Or you actually found someone else who is better than me?

Do you know that this is the first time I so cared about a guy who I loved the most? Do you know that before I go to sleep I will always say my prayer in my heart hoping that you are fine? Do you know that everytime I wake up from my sleep the first person I ever think of is YOU? Do you know how much I wanted to hug you everyday? Do you know I always wanted to say those 3 magical words to you?

I really wanted to know if you are taking this relationship seriously? Cause I do and this is the first time I'm doing so. I also wanted to know that if you mean it when you said you love me or is it you are just saying it for fun?

You told me before not to leave you. But,now it seems like you are trying to leave me without saying a single word.

Do you know that right now all I can think of is ending this relationship with you? I guess you will be happy if I said "I wanna break up with you". I'm not sure if this is a wise solution. I still can't let go of you cause my love for you is just too deep and it gets deeper everyday!

Lastly,I wanna ask you a few questions :
1)Do you miss me?
2)Do you love me?
3)Do you wanna continue this relationship or end it?
4)Will you be more caring towards me?
5)Will you be there for me whenever I need you?
6)Have you ever wonder how am I doing?
7)Have you ever staying up all night just thinking about me?
8)ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME?

What?

About 15 minutes ago..I discovered something that really breaks my heart. Ermm,I'm a lil bit angry. Just a lil bit okay? Right now all I wanna do is don't think about anything & just forgets it! But luckily I discover it early if not..I guess I will the one get hurt in the end.

I'm hoping I can talk about this matter with someone who had experience in it & ask for their advise.

-Peace-

X'mas X'mas

Wow,time flies huh? Going to be end of year 2008. X'mas is just around the corner. I don't what to do on that day & I'm feeling very lazy to plan what should i do on that day. I never ever celebrate X'mas before,k? Hehehe. I know I'm kinda cacated. =D

Anyway,I just wanna wish everyone out there MERRY X'MAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Have fun to the MAX!!

WEEEE!!!

What a sunny day today when I woke up at 8.30am. Well,I was forced to wake up this early cause I have to baby sit my cousin sis who is just 9 months old. *UGHHGHH* With a heavy head I leave my bed with my half eyes open. Haha.

Without brushing my teeth & wash my face,I went into my bro's room to online!! After I lazy around in the house till 9.30am,I went to brush my teeth. I was still blur that time. I almost MISTAKEN my facial wash as my TOOTHPASTE!! Hahahha.. Dont worry, I didnt brush my teeth with my facial wash!

When I was baby sitting the baby,all she do was bababababababababababababababa-ing the whole time. Hahaha. Yeah,she is damn damn damn KAWAII. Then about 10 am i put her to sleep while I was in my room booming my IPOD. Hehehe.

Thats all I did so far.I don;t know why suddenly I have the "semangat" to post blog. hahaha

I hope...

Here it comes again!

Everytime I wake up early in the morning hoping that I will get a miracle that is you sending me a messaging by asking me if i did slept well.
Everytime when I'm down,I hope that I can lean on your shoulder and cry out as much as I want.
Everytime when I'm feeling lonely,I hope that you will be there for me and telling me stories/cracking jokes to get rid of my boredom.
Everytime is me the one said "I love you" ,I hope it was you the one said that to me first instead of me saying it to you.

Whenever I send you a message,I hope that you will reply me as fast as possible & will give me a reply!
I always wished that you will be more caring like my brother did to her girlfriend.
I always wanted you to send me sweet messages like what a normal couples will do.
I always wonder if we are really meant for each other, it seems like you doesn't care about me.

Whenever I send you a message,I have a feeling that I'm an annoying b**** .
I always wanted you the one that care for me more instead of my friends!
With all your actions, I don't know if I'm your girlfriend or just a toy for you to play around whenever you are feeling bored.
I used to think back the moment where you send me those messages saying that how much you missed me and how much you love me.

All I can think of right now is those days where I sat in front of my mobile hoping to see your message popping out on my screen & those days were LONG for me!
Happy moments I had with you? Are there any? I guess there's none!

My heart aches a lot whenever I think of breaking up with you.
I don't know if I can carry on with my life without you around cause I'm already ADDICTED to YOU!
I don't know if I can live my day without talking to you or messaging you.
I always wanted to text you but I tried not to cause I know that you are busy with your stuff.

Right now I don't know why I wanted to cry so much.
I really wished I can sit in front of you and tell you how I'm feeling right now.
Maybe is better for us not to talk to each other for a moment.
I will wait till the day you send me a message/talk to me.
I'm not going to talk to you unless you start it first.

what a B.O.R.I.N.G day!

Today I'm feeling very very very bored at home. And and and..lazy to do things either. So what I've done for the whole day? I keep on Gokusen-ing lo. Is a JDODRAMA. Is nice & funny. Haha. The main actor is very handsome! LOL.

Besides that,I also listening to I LOVE X'MAS by Tommy Heavenly6 & Bu Chao Bu Yong Hua Qian by JJ Lin. Then, don't know why suddenly only "A.L" come across my mind. *I bet you guys must be wondering what the hell is A.L,riteee?? Hehehehehe. I will not tell you guys what is it or who is it. Will just let you guys be in mystery. XD.

Well,if you guys are smart enough to at least get some clue. I will tell you guys lo. Muahahahaha. *Sigh* Right now I really feeling damn damn damn bored-la.

*deep breath*

Love Story by Taylor Swift

*the one that highlighted with pink colour is the part where i LIKE it!!*


We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

Midvalley!

My bro and I were feeling bored today so both of us decided to lepak at Midvalley. We planned to watch 2 movies. They are Twilight & Bolt. But we only managed to watch twilight & Igor. This is because Bolt is only available at 11.30pm. Come on,we where got so free go watch 11.30pm show. Hahaha.

This was my first time watching 2 movies in a day. It was really very tiring! We watched the same advertisements for TWICE!! Siao eh.

Igor was kinda boring for me whereas twilight was kinda nice for me cause its about ROMANCE! I like the ending of twilight! Is an happy ending! Hahahaha. While watching both movies..my mind was thinking about something till I cannot concentrate on the movies. It was damn frustrating! *U guys better dont ask what was I thinking cause I'm not gonna tell u guys BLUEK!*

About 6.30 pm only we ciow from Midvalley. And and and..I was starving like hell when I was watching Twilight. Hahahaha

Memory!

Yesterday I started my work at my ex-tuition centre. It was fun though cause I can control the whole class by myself! Haha. All my students are Std 4,5 & 6. They look so tiny & short. SO CUTE!!! Yesterday was just 4 of them came. Then,my tuition teacher(who is my boss now) said next week we'll have about 16-30 students *wahhh,so "little" meh?* Hahaha.

About 9.30am,one of the students asked me if I'm hungry. Her name is Priscilla. She is cute though. Kekeke. After that we keep on talk about food in the class cause both of us didnt take our breakfast. Muahahaha. Bout 10.30am all of us balik rumah lo.

BUT..BUT..I didnt balik rumah oo. Hehe. Mana I pergi? I go out kai kai with my boi boi lo. *shhsshh,dun tell anyone ya ^^v* Let's keep it as a secret!!. Hehehe.

Both of us went to watch Madagascar:Escape 2 Africa at Midvalley. The movie was kinda nice though cause all the "creatures" in that movie so KAWAIIIIII. Hahahaha. When the movie was about to end,then he suddenly grabbed my hand. I was kinda shocked at first then later feels nothing..:p It feels nice when he was grabbing my hand bcoz his hand is very very soft. I hope that I can freeze that moment and wished that he will never ever let go of my hand. XD.

After that,we went to grab a bite at a Japanese restaurant (Zanmei). Before that, we went to buy some donuts at Big Apple. Hehehe. My favourite! Selepas makan,we went to a bookstore to look for a book called "Twilight". Unfortunately,it was out of stock! We spend quite some time at the bookstore. I was looking for my horror manga but to my disappointment I couldn't find it. I gave up & go look for my boi boi lo. My boi boi was reading some comics. I found him he was funny & cute. I don't why la. Don't ask me ya. Is just a feeling only~~

Then,we headed home. I can't remember what time was it. Maybe around 3.30-4.00pm. He fetched me home! *WEEEEEE*

As a conclusion,I did have fun with him on our first date. I guess I'm falling in love this time! *evil laugh*