R.I.P Uncle Lai

About 15 minutes ago, I was informed that my precious cousin sister's dad (who is my uncle) just passed away. This afternoon around 2.30 pm I went to visit him with my elder bro and cousin brother. So, this blog is specially dedicated to him.

I am sure all of us are happy yet feeling sad that he has "moved on". We are feeling happy cause he does not need to suffer anymore. My uncle had a stage four lung cancer so he is doing chemo in SJMC. All of us can see that he suffers a lot. Even though I am not close with this uncle but I do feel sad cause my beloved cousin sister just lost his father. Everything will be different from this moment.

I do really hope that she and her family will be alright. May God bless them.

May you rest in peace Uncle Lai.

Condolences,

Lisa & the Family.

This is how I felt.

Your way.

I just realized that recently, we didn't talk to each other much. Last time, we used to keep in touch with one another every millisecond!!! But now, everything seems so dull and boring to me.

Both of us don't have much to talk about. It always ended up either me stop giving you a reply or vise versa. I am not sure if this is a good thing.

Somehow, there's something bothering about me and making me to doubt about you and US (sometimes not all the time)!!!

I am so afraid that the distance between us gets further and further.

Blank!

I don't know how I feel anymore. Everything is just way too different from last time. I think there's something in me is changing.

Why is it so complicated? I just want something fun and simple.

Whatever!!

You don't need to change yourself cause of what happened last time. After all, you still the same. To be honest, I am quite disappointed to see that. Guess nothing much I can do. I will just let everything be that way. :) I didn't expect you to be different than last time cause I know you won't and never will.

OMG!

Hey people,for two months already that I didn't update my blog. I got lotsa stories wanna tell y'all but I am too lazy to type it out. Since I am in a mood to type right now, I will just touch up on what I've been doing for the past 2 months.

I have been struggling in Form 6 life. But,it is quite fun when I can get to meet up my friends,crack jokes,have a little bit of arguement with them and etc. etc. Tomorrow I will be sitting for my very first monthly test. Hehe. I am feeling very nervous and worried as well. Form 6 syllabus is damn WIDE!!! What the hell?!?!?!?! This is seriously insane man. I don't know what am I doing.

Ok,thats all for today. Need to get back to my revision. =(

!@#$%^&*

Feeling stress from studies, missing someone, waiting for someones text & insomnia make you looks like an idiot and feel horrible!!

That's what I am feeling right now! ='(

Ehh??

After falling asleep on my bed,I went out to the kitchen to grab some cold water to drink. Once I open the fridge,something caught both of my eyes!! What is that huh? You guys must be wondering. Hehe.

I saw an egg,sitting there alone all by itself. Why did it caught my eyes? Is because of it superb unique shape. It is totally different from other eggs. *Roses among the thorns* I was so amazed by it shape and keep on looking at it. I told my mom about it. Yeah,I was so excited about it. Hahaha. I am nuts! =D

Let us cut out all the crap and take a look at the egg!

1st of all of course must see how does a normal egg looks like..

2nd..see the 'sakai'..hahaha

Let's see the comparison!!

Hahahaha. I know y'all must be thinking I am weird right for blogging about EGGS! I was just too freaking bored at home so I am just trying to do something. Hehehehe.

I need to get dressed for my friend's b'day parttteehhh (Swee Peng). I also would like to wish her Happy B'day!!!!

Comes Around.

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down

Just get back up when it knocks you down, knocks you down

It's Love

This is a song written by an unknown Jap. guy. I feel that this song lyrics is very sweet in some way. =)


You can't touch your hear but I feel it so clearly
What kind of melody can I honestly sincerely put this emotion into
Tell me you'll never mean to leave me
Believe me I won't let you cry upon my words
You have place in my heart
I need you all night
Whole life I was waiting for this

It's love
You gave me baby
It's like deep blue
Come this way
I'll lead you
Don't doubt my love
Do you see the star above us?
It'll never be gone

You don't need to feel lonely
It's only necessary to know me loving you
I want you to want me
How could I tell you?
How could I show you?
What else can I do?
Oh baby,
I'm in love with you.


Ahh,isn't it this masterpiece is beautifully written? Hehe. Hope y'all enjoy it. XD

Hold back!

Ermm, I don't know why I suddenly feel like crying now.
Ahh, feeling so burdened!
SO restless!
So frustrated!
Really really don't know what to do.

Yo,I am back in action!!

Hello everyone! I am back to blogging. I have been inactive for how long?? Hehe. So sorry for keeping you guys waiting (err,I hope so got people waiting for me to update this blog-la ).

Today I went to school to celebrate Teacher's Day! Owh ya,did I tell you guys that I am back in school? Yeah,I am doing form 6 now in La Salle,P.J school. The way La Salle celebrate Teacher's Day was different than my previous school. I think my former school is much better than La Salle. No offence to all La Sallians!! Hahaha. >.<

I performed today. Aiya,relax-la people. I perform with a bunch of friends. We formed a singing group consists of 12 people ( Sai Sudha, Parvin, Hema, Sharmilaa, Nicole, Rachel, Nagammai, Natasha, Sze Sze, Mui Koon, Michelle and last but not least is L-I-S-A). Well,we didn't really did a good job cause we just practised for one 2 days. 2 DAYSSSSSS!!! Can you imagine that? We were noticed to perform on Teacher's Day like on Monday? So yeah,you all can imagine-la how frustrated we were. Anyway,we enjoyed ourselves on the stage cause all the audience a.k.a the La Sallians cheered for us.

Oppss,almost forgot to tell you people that we actually sang "How Do I Live by Trisha Yearwood". As I am standing the front row (being the shortest in my group =.='') I have to memorize the whole freaking song in 2 days!! So,every single night and day I will be singing that song before I go to bed. Hehehehehe.

After all the singing,I went to PAANDI (a mamak next to my school) for lunch. There were 8 of us (Rodney,Aaron,Asha,Natasha,Rachel,Nicole,Sharmilaa and shortie Lisa). While we were "mamak-ing",we are planning to go for a movie tomorrow after being stressed for goddamn 2 weeks. After discuss discuss,we decided to go and watch Night at the Museum 2!! Then,we walked back to school and find more people to join us for tomorrow. Without us noticing it,we accidentally asked too many friends to go. Hahaha. They are Wai Hong(a.k.a Hong Hong),Sai Sudha,Hema,Nicole,Sharmilaa,Rachel,Natasha and maybe Nabila).

Ermm,I hope that tomorrow will be fun and crazy!! =D

Stop and Stare

I was staring outside my window for about 3 minutes and wondering why can't I spend my holiday time happily for the past 3 months. Well, there are a few moments that I actually had fun when I am away for vacation.

Right now there is a HUGE thunderstorm striking in my mind. I am feeling so restless and I couldn't even breathe properly. I don't what is wrong with me. Out of nowhere I just become emo and feel like crying. I am feeling so suffocated in my own house. I really wanna step out of this room right now and go out have fun with my friends.

I am pretty sure some you of out there know the REASON why I am behaving this way. There is an anger in me that I can't express and that makes me feeling very very tired!

I have been thinking a lot lately. Haiya,so lazy to say everything. Will have to leave now. Ciao.

TAKE THIS!!!

I AM GOING TO LET YOU HAVE A TASTE OF WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS.

I AM NOT GOING TO CARE OR GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU!

YOU ARE REALLY TESTING MY PATIENCE!!!

YOU ARE DRIVING ME NUTS!

GEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!

Ending?

I don't think that you realise everything is falling apart. Everything just changed in few days without you noticing it but I can see it,baby. I am feeling so down right now till I am speechless. No words can describe all the feelings I am having now. I am not going to shed a tears for you cause I know nothing changes even I cry my lungs out. And you will never know that I am crying for you.

You care about your own stuffs too much until you abandon me. You don't give a damn about me,right? I have waited long enough and been patience for quite some time. I really don't know if I can go on like this.

I am really trying hard to be understanding and can't you care for me a little bit more? Or love me as you really really adore me?

Sicko!

Oh no,I'm sick right now. I'm having a cough and a flu. I guess soon I will get my fever because right now I'm feeling very uncomfortable and weak. I don't even have the strength to stand up or do anything. I just want to lay on my bed and get more sleep! But, I need to go for my work at 5.15pm today and I'm feeling damn lazy to get my ass up for work.


Ugh,I'm feeling half dead now! Gosh!!!!

Why Now?

Isn't this is adorable?

Feel the love in the air!


We will never be apart.


Can love be as beautiful as this?

For the past few days I have been thinking to myself what if I get to know you first instead of him? Will I be happier now? I'm pretty sure that you will :

- love me more
- appreciate me more
- care for me more
- think of me more
- miss me more

Why now only you walk into my life? Why can't you be a little bit earlier? Everything will be different now if I get to know you much much earlier before I met him. Deep down in my heart I know that you will be a lovely guy who will be loyal to his girlfriend and will make her feel secure all the time whenever she is with you. And, the girl will be surrounded by love and everyday will be a Valentine Day to her.

Every morning,the girl's day will be brighten up by all the love messages and morning kisses you send to her. This can make the girl feels adored and being truly sincerely loved by someone dear to her. The girl will be proud to introduce you to her friends as a BOYFRIEND and not some random guys she knows.

I also can feel that whenever the girl is in your arms, she will feel warm and comfortable and a disaster day will turn into "it-doesn't-matter-anymore" day. You will be a guy who will make everythings right whenever there's something went wrong. You will be a guy who will NEVER EVER abandon his girlfriend no matter how busy you are. You will still keep your girlfriend in your heart and let her image running in your mind even when you are sleeping, you will still think of her and dream about her. You will be the guy who will never make your girlfriend worried about you cause you will send a message or give a call to your boo just to tell her that you are actually still alive and doing fine. LOL.

You will be the guy who will hold on tight to his girlfriend's hand and will not let it go eventhough there's a hurricane strike Malaysia. You will be the guy who will gently hold on to his girlfriend's heart as you know it is very fragile and will be broken into million pieces once you hurt her feelings and you will never able to put it back together those broken pieces.

And and and..The most important thing is you do definitely will always say those 3 magical words to your baby girl in order to let her know and feels how important she is to you.

What's Wrong?

I don't know why you keep on running through my mind but I DO NOT miss you. Is it a good thing that I'm not missing you? Last time I will miss you like crazy eventhough we didn't talk for like even 1 hour!! About 3 days have passed and yet I didn't get any messages from you. What is wrong with you now? Or is it me? Or is it both of us?

*Deep breath*

I really wanna let go of everything. Is it ok with you if I say I wanna stop all these? I know you were hurt twice. I want to give all my love to you but you doesn't give me an opportunity to do so. The time that we've spent together were just like a dream to me cause I can't feel any love from you. I guess we are not meant for each other. And, I do doubt about you sometimes. I don't feel secure at all when I'm with you cause I don't completely trust you!

You never accomplish all the promises that you've made. You just speak it out but you never really actually done it! *ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS*

The best way to make myself feels better is to stop contacting you or think about you. I shoud just erase you from my mind and act like we are just friends. If you do really love me...no,I don't think you love me at all.

Yippie!

Hey guys,I'm back again after I neglected my blog for about a month!! Hahahaha. Well, I am not sure if there will be anyone of you reading my blog but I do know I do have lots of SILENT READERSSSS!!

Ahah,Let's see what I am going to crap about today. Hehehe. I will just start of how am I feeling today since SPM results will be out in 2 days time. I'm sure you all already know that cause I know some of you might be scaring your friends,brothers,sisters or cousins. Haha. Hmm,I am not feeling worried/nervous/scared. Can this be a good sigb or a bad one? I really don't know because this is not the usual me as in I always will get nervous whenever I'm getting my results. It doesn't matter if it just a monthly tests results or final examinations results. =.="

To let you all know, I will be flying up to Bangkok the next day after I got my results (13th March-16th March 2009). What a bad luck huh? LOL. Whatever it is, I will just hope that I will get good results for my SPM and I able to hit the target that I've been aiming for for the past 2 years! And also as a PAY BACK for all the SH*Ts I've been through during the month of SPM. Hehehehe.

INSOMNIA!!!

Oh my gawd! Ppl I'm struggling right now cause I COULDN'T SLEEP!!

Right now is going to be 2 a.m. I tried to get some sleep just now but my eyes are wide open!! ARRR! I'm feeling very very tired yet I just couldn't shut my eyes. What a sad sad sad case. And..now I'm feeling hungry but I don't feel like eating. =.=''. I think I'm going INSANE for no reason!! Hahaha.

Hmm,for these past two days..something shocking happened and I'm feeling happy about it. Hehehehe. Well,can consider as a MIRACLE laaaa~~ Kekekekeke. I really really never expect this to happen and this is the FIRST! I hope this won't be the last as well cause I don't want my mood got destroyed! I want to maintain this happy moment forever and ever and ever and ever and ever!! BUT...don't worry..I can bet RM105467487655315465463187496512 with you that this "miracle" won't last long one. Hahaha. So get ready for my upcoming blog when I express my anger about it. Hahahahaha. It will be very very soon,aite? ^^v

I'm sure most of you ppl will be wondering what this gila girl talking. Wakakaka. I know right now there are lots of question marks popping out on your head. I can see them from here!! Hohoho. I can help you to get rid all those question marksssss! You guys can just forget about it,don't think about it and don't bother! Just read this and buat bodoh. Hahaha. I'm serious about this you know.I'm not joking!