I hope...

Here it comes again!

Everytime I wake up early in the morning hoping that I will get a miracle that is you sending me a messaging by asking me if i did slept well.
Everytime when I'm down,I hope that I can lean on your shoulder and cry out as much as I want.
Everytime when I'm feeling lonely,I hope that you will be there for me and telling me stories/cracking jokes to get rid of my boredom.
Everytime is me the one said "I love you" ,I hope it was you the one said that to me first instead of me saying it to you.

Whenever I send you a message,I hope that you will reply me as fast as possible & will give me a reply!
I always wished that you will be more caring like my brother did to her girlfriend.
I always wanted you to send me sweet messages like what a normal couples will do.
I always wonder if we are really meant for each other, it seems like you doesn't care about me.

Whenever I send you a message,I have a feeling that I'm an annoying b**** .
I always wanted you the one that care for me more instead of my friends!
With all your actions, I don't know if I'm your girlfriend or just a toy for you to play around whenever you are feeling bored.
I used to think back the moment where you send me those messages saying that how much you missed me and how much you love me.

All I can think of right now is those days where I sat in front of my mobile hoping to see your message popping out on my screen & those days were LONG for me!
Happy moments I had with you? Are there any? I guess there's none!

My heart aches a lot whenever I think of breaking up with you.
I don't know if I can carry on with my life without you around cause I'm already ADDICTED to YOU!
I don't know if I can live my day without talking to you or messaging you.
I always wanted to text you but I tried not to cause I know that you are busy with your stuff.

Right now I don't know why I wanted to cry so much.
I really wished I can sit in front of you and tell you how I'm feeling right now.
Maybe is better for us not to talk to each other for a moment.
I will wait till the day you send me a message/talk to me.
I'm not going to talk to you unless you start it first.