You will never know!

I don't know how should I start this blog cause I have too much to say till I don't know where should I say.

Right now,you will never know that how suffering am I to stop myself from thinking about you,your face,your smile,your laughter & your voice. For the past few days,all I can think of is you! I tried before to get you out of my mind but it seems like I CAN'T DO IT! Do you know how frustating is it?

I also been wondering if you ever feel the same way as I do know. I guess the answer is NO cause you doesn't even seems to bother replying me message. I guess eventhoug I'm dead, you wont even bother to care/attend my funeral.

I don't know what you have been doing lately. Is it that you don't want me anymore? Am I too annoying? Is it you are bored with me so you want to dump me(already)? Or you actually found someone else who is better than me?

Do you know that this is the first time I so cared about a guy who I loved the most? Do you know that before I go to sleep I will always say my prayer in my heart hoping that you are fine? Do you know that everytime I wake up from my sleep the first person I ever think of is YOU? Do you know how much I wanted to hug you everyday? Do you know I always wanted to say those 3 magical words to you?

I really wanted to know if you are taking this relationship seriously? Cause I do and this is the first time I'm doing so. I also wanted to know that if you mean it when you said you love me or is it you are just saying it for fun?

You told me before not to leave you. But,now it seems like you are trying to leave me without saying a single word.

Do you know that right now all I can think of is ending this relationship with you? I guess you will be happy if I said "I wanna break up with you". I'm not sure if this is a wise solution. I still can't let go of you cause my love for you is just too deep and it gets deeper everyday!

Lastly,I wanna ask you a few questions :
1)Do you miss me?
2)Do you love me?
3)Do you wanna continue this relationship or end it?
4)Will you be more caring towards me?
5)Will you be there for me whenever I need you?
6)Have you ever wonder how am I doing?
7)Have you ever staying up all night just thinking about me?
8)ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME?